i’ve thought of things being different if i had chosen otherwise.  and that how messy life could’ve been.  but something in the air tells me that where i am is where i should be.  not everyone is given that many takes and chances to fix things but when it’s given, you grab it; you embrace it.

i’ve thought of that day when we’ll just forget about everything that happened in between.  surely we’re moving and getting there.  bu here i am; pacing back and forth in my mind the idea of “what if’s”. 

i’ve though of security and acceptance.  and i’ve thought of the commitment and love shared.  we’re definitely taking a big step from where we were.  i honestly am getting stuck thinking whether to move forward from this or take a step back for awhile.

i’ve thought of those. but in the meanwhile, let me enjoy my coffee and i’ll get back to thinking us again.  because i’m pretty sure, this will not go away until i hear from you.